• Author Mel Dau

Can I Come Into The Out Now?

Updated: Aug 31, 2020

I have lived most of my life asking this question internally, “Can I come into the out now?” You live a life perfecting your mask because the fear of not being accepted for who you truly are, flaws and all, is paralyzing. You wear your mask for so long that you look in the mirror and the reflection staring back is that of a “completed stranger”. We all say we try not to judge however we all know that is easier said than done. We judge with our looks, our side conversations and the loudest of them all our silence. We want people to be real, be themselves…be 100…be could you really handle it if people came into the out?

Could you handle me at my lowest? When my meds seem to give me no relief or when I can’t see the light… hell I can’t even see the tunnel I’m in. One thing I know for sure is people love the upbeat, always has a joke, forever petty Tyeis. Hell, I even tickle myself most days so I know others are tickled too. That me you see is about 23% of who I am. Why did I pick 23%, that’s such a random percentage. I mean I could have just said 25% to make it even. Ok, I’m bothered now! That me you see is about 25% of who I am.

Are you allowing the people in your life to truly come into the out? So many of us are living with a mask on because of the silent judgment. We don’t want to fully admit it because of pride. We are locked in a glass closet with a wooden stick blocking our exit. We see the world from the inside and want badly to be a part of it. Smiling from the heart and not from the mask, is what I personally desire. Now don’t get me wrong, in my efforts to come into the out I have put many cracks in the glass door. Those cracks were made by way of many hours of therapy, self-evaluation, spiritual realignments and simply letting go of the notion that I can please everyone.

One day the strength will be there to crack the glass in just the right place that I can stick my hand through and remove the wooden stick of judgement. To accept the fact that judgments are NEVER going to go away however we should NEVER allow it to dictate the manner in which we make our moves.judgment

So I ask you, “Are you Ready to come into the Out now or do you still have some glass to crack?”

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